Who am I?

I've been pondering this all day. This very question... It can make you or break you. Today it tried to break me. All I could hear was the negative - "you're not good enough", "you're not pretty or smart enough", "you're not skinny enough" and the list goes on. Questions and thoughts we've all had at one time or another.

So I asked some of my family, "Am I enough?" To which they replied, "Enough what?" and "You are wonderful, don't ever doubt it" and "Absolutely you are!"

The question was still raised, I doubted their answers. I just didn't feel like I was enough. You know what? My happiness, peace and joy comes from God alone. How can I be satisfied with the answers I receive here on earth if I'm not tuned in to Jesus through Holy Spirit and listening to what and who He says I am? I can't. Jesus says I am loved, I am beautiful, I am worthy, I am forgiven and I am free. And so much more! God, Abba, Daddy? He says I am His. What more do I need to hear!?

See... We have the power to choose how our moments are played out. The moment that negative thought crossed my mind should have been the moment I told it where to go, that it has no place in my mind, that the only things allowed there are those things that are Holy. But I didn't. You know what? I'm human. It happens. I had a song pop in my mind while in this negative state and thought I would share it with y'all. Here it is :

When I lose my way,
And I forget my name,
Remind me who I am.
In the mirror all I see,
Is who I don't wanna be,
Remind me who I am.
In the loneliest places,
When I can't remember what grace is.

Tell me once again who I am to You,
Who I am to You.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You,
That I belong to You.
To You.

When my heart is like a stone,
And I'm running far from home,
Remind me who I am.
When I can't receive Your love,
Afraid I'll never be enough,
Remind me who I am.
If I'm Your beloved,
Can You help me believe it.

Tell me once again who I am to You,
Who I am to You, whoa.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You.
That I belong to You.
To You.

I'm the one you love,
I'm the one you love,
That will be enough,
I'm the one you love.

Tell me once again who I am to You.
Who I am to You.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to You,
That I belong to You, oh.

Who I Am by Jason Gray

Fitting huh?

Father, forgive me for losing sight of who you have made me, called me to be. Thank You for patiently waiting on me to get through my little tantrum to get to that place where I could open my eyes and ears to Your voice. Thank You for loving me, for calling me Your own and guiding me. Thank You for all You've done for me. I love You so much Daddy! Love always...

Your Little Girl