Daddy's Heart

Daddy's Heart

So I'm driving home yesterday, listening to worship music and somewhat absentmindedly, I'm singing the song that's currently playing on my playlist. That song is Pursuit from Jesus Cultures newest album, Live from New York. Here's the lyrics so you have an idea of what I'm singing -


Strip everything away till all I have is You
Undo the veils till all I see is You
Strip everything away till all I have is You
Undo the veils till all I see is You

I will pursue You, I will pursue Your presence
I will pursue You, I will pursue Your presence

I'm pressing in to You so do not pass me by
I'm breaking through the boundaries
I will not be denied

I will pursue You, I will pursue Your presence
I will pursue You, I will pursue Your presence

Open my eyes, search me inside, I cant live
without Your presence, I can't live without
Your presence

Awesome song right? Of course it usually always ushers me into His Presence. But yesterday was different. It hit me like a ton of bricks... How many times are we singing along with a song on the radio (in this case my playlist), not paying attention to what we are singing? I have a bad habit of it. I tune everything out, usually only listening to the music (instrument) part and being lost in my thoughts, the cares of this world, my wants and needs, my relationships (earthly), my future... Notice a pattern here? The infamous "I" comes into play A LOT... So, I was singing this song and the lyrics came into focus in my mind. My hearts cry really is for Abba to "Strip everything away, till all I have is Him... Till all I can see is Him". My hearts cry is to pursue Him with everything within me, to get to that point that ALL I need is His presence.

You know what I realized though? Every time I am absentmindedly singing these lyrics, or any song that calls on Him for that matter, that He is waiting right there for me, yearning for me to let go and fall into His arms. Very seldom do I turn loose of all "my" stuff... And it breaks His heart!

God, I ask You to forgive me for calling on You and then not trusting in You. I am pressing in to You now Abba, so please do not pass me by! I'm breaking through the boundaries, I will not be denied! I ask You to open my eyes and search me inside. I can not live without Your presence Daddy. Father, break my heart for what breaks Yours. Help me to be more Christ centered in EVERYTHING. I love You so much Daddy!

Love always,
Your little girl