Have you ever been going along, just fine, content even, and realize that somewhere along the way, you have taken a wrong turn? Like cell phone service in the middle of nowhere, the connection is suddenly lost, the source of the "power" no longer available. The longer you go without that power, the faster your battery seems to go, it is drained. Well, in all aspects of the above words, I have found myself in this exact position. I have become content with where I am in life. My "battery" is drained, I feel I do not have the strength to carry on. Oh, there are definitely moments where the power kicks back on, like during worship, bible study, etc - it's just everyday life that leaves you out in the middle of a desert. This can only mean two things - 1) I need to get myself plugged back in to my Power Supply and rest in Him and 2) I'm made for more than this everyday life I have been living.
Recently, a friend of mine told me that as she was praying one morning, she felt God tell her to tell me that I needed to read this book, "Hinds Feet on High Places" by Hannah Hurnard. He, Papa God, said that this is exactly where I am right now in my life. From the moment I first opened this book, I could tell that she was right. Much Afraid and I have an awful lot in common. You see, Much Afraid has been commissioned by the Good Shepherd to take some risks, follow Him and develop Hinds Feet in the place of her lameness, to cross some obstacles that seem impossible to cross, leaving behind everything and everyone she has ever known. Including (especially) her fears. How much are we like that in our lives? You feel a Word from The Lord, telling you that it's time to move, whether that be a new job, a new home, new friends, whatever the case may be, and next thing you know, your fears settle in. You start to question whether you really heard from Papa, or, fear of the unknown makes you lame or panicked to the point of not being able to move forward. All He wants is for us to trust Him, take His hand and walk with Him. He's never going to leave us or forsake us. So why is it so hard to take that first step??
"The Lord God is my strength, and He will make my feet like hinds' feet, and He will make me walk upon mine high places." Habakkuk 3:19
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I feel a changing of seasons - and for once, I'm not fighting it. I've finally learned that there will be people in and out of our lives, people that we swore we would never leave and vice versa. It may not be that you lose these people completely, just that their roles in our lives change and suddenly they are no longer front and center as they have been. I've also realized that with each changing of season, my Papa sends me someone(s) to help make that transition a little easier. I'm so thankful that He loves me so much. All I can do is pray for eyes to see and ears to hear what He is saying to me during this time.
